I Hate Days Like Today…So I’ll Pray for Tomorrow

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Carolyn Savage

I hate days like today.  Truly hate them. 

Why?

Well, beyond the obvious emotions of sadness, shock and anger that coarse through me right now, I can’t help but imagine the horror that’s unfolding in so many homes, for so many families of the innocent victims.  The heartbreak of mothers who sent their child off to the movies–which is supposed to be a safe place–only to have their life snuffed out by a madman.  I can  feel their grief in my own heart.  It’s a lump in my chest, and I know it’s going to be there for a while.

I also know the process.  Afterall, this isn’t our first time at the rodeo (as much as I wish it was).

Today, lists of the dead and injured will grow to include names and faces.  Faces of ordinary yet extraordinary people, who were simply in the wrong place at the wrong time. 

By this afternoon we’ll start hearing from victims’ families.  We’ll watch them memorialize their loved ones, in hopes that perfect strangers, like me,  will understand what the world lost last night. 

By tonight, we’ll have images of a psychopath burned into our brains.  The mugshot of the perpetrator will be flashed on every television set, Twitter feed and homepage in an attempt to humanize the face of evil.  And I’ll look into his eyes and wonder,  How did you become such a monster?  And, of course, there won’t be a satisfying answer to be had.

Soon the President will make a statement offering his and the entire country’s condolences.  And it won’t seem like enough.  But it’s all he can do.

Charges will be filed, and they won’t seem fitting. 

Next week there’ll be a memorial service.  You know, the one in the stadium where politicians and religious leaders will try and make everyone feel a little bit better.  And it may work, for us strangers, but then will come the visions of the families leaving that service, still as heartbroken as they were when they entered.  They have a lifetime to deal with this and I wish I could take it away.  But I can’t.  No one can.  And that’s unsettling.

And then will come the funerals.  And I know myself.  I’ll cry every time I see another mother crying.  It’s the way I’m wired.

So, yes.  I hate today. 

But I’ll pray for tomorrow.  Pray with me!

5 Comments on “ I Hate Days Like Today…So I’ll Pray for Tomorrow ”

  • Lynette | July 20th, 2012 9:57 am

    I am also very saddened by this mornings events!!! I have 6 boys, and the oldest, who is 18, was at the midnight showing in Kalamazoo, MI last night with a friend. I know I will be holding all my boys a little tighter today!!! So very sad. I will be praying right along with you!!!

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  • Denise Stump | July 20th, 2012 9:59 am

    Carol, Your writing is superb and captures the essence of what we all feel. Where can anyone go that is safe anymore? Where can children go with their friends to enjoy a fun night out? So many questions yet no answers. I don’t think I even want to turn the TV on to hear the details of the shootings but yes, I will certainly pray for the families.

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  • Dani | July 20th, 2012 12:23 pm

    Wonderful post (like always). We are all praying along with you.
    -Dani
    @sunshinemommy

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  • Robbin | July 20th, 2012 8:16 pm

    You’ve written an essay that sums up exactly the way I feel. Thanks for putting words to my confusion, sadness, dismay. Did things like this happen when we were kids, and we just didn’t know about it because news wasn’t so immediate? Keeping all close in prayer.

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  • Marilyn | July 20th, 2012 10:50 pm

    This is a shocking reminder of how precious and fragile life is. Such sorrow.

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