The Catch…Because There’s Always A “Catch”

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Carolyn Savage

At least there is when it comes to me and pregnancy.

Before I delve into the issues ahead of us, I’d like to sincerely thank all of you who took to the time to congratulate us.  The general outpouring of support was both unexpected and much appreciated.  In fact, I think I may have underestimated the impact our news would have.  I mean, of course I anticipated people would be happy for us.  I didn’t expect it to be reported on our local ABC news cast…at 5…at 6…and at 11.  In fact, I had no idea it was even newsworthy. (One could probably make a valid argument that it’s not.  But, then I have to remind myself I live in Toledo, Ohio.  It’s almost always a slow news day around our parts which is actually something Sean and I are grateful for.)

Now…about that “catch”.

First let me say that so far this pregnancy has been uneventful.  In fact, I haven’t experienced a first trimester like the one I just finished since I was pregnant with Drew, and his pregnancy was text book.  Completely complication free.  If I could order a pregnancy experience  just like the one we had with him–well, life would be perfect.  In fact, why don’t I publicly place that order right now.

Dear God,

Could you please afford me the opportunity to gestate in good health?  More specifically I’d like to slam the door on my morning (ahem…all day) sickness sometime next week–just like I did with Drew;  I’d like to sail through the second trimester as if absolutely nothing is different about my life beyond my expanding waist band–just like Drew;  and I’d like to carry this baby to 40 weeks (actually 39 weeks would be fine …I don’t want to get greedy here, folks) and experience an average delivery resulting in a healthy baby who can come home from the hospital within a few days…just like I did with Drew.  

Amen.

If only it was that easy.

Of course, I want to be optimistic.  After all, last week I met with a doctor from our local hospital’s maternal fetal medicine department, and he was very optimistic.  He let me come off my Lovenox (a blood thinner I took with Logan and Mary Kate to stave off blood clots); he was very pleased with our baby’s development as there were no soft markers for any chromosomal abnormaliltes; and he explained that because my HELLP Syndrome wasn’t as pronounced with Mary Kate and nonexistent with Logan he is hopeful I won’t experience it with this pregnancy.  (HELLP Syndrome, a rare and dangerous form of preeclampsia, darn near killed me with Ryan, circa 1997.)

All reasons to be hopeful.

But, if you’ve read Inconceivable you know I have a bad habit of waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Especially when I’m pregnant.  I know way more about possible obstetric complications than any formally educated elementary educator should know.  In fact, if I were a con artist I could probably pass for an OB.  (Not a L & D nurse, though.  Because, you know, they truly do all the work.)  Anyways, I’m doing my best to keep my worries in check and enjoy the unexpected good fortune of this pregnancy.  I know I need to be prepared for things to go south, but until that actually happens, I need to stay positive.

I guess one could say “I’m praying to God but rowing to shore.”

If you wouldn’t mind throwing a prayer or good vibe in our direction…well…I’d be most appreciative.

*****

Thanks again for all of the love and support.  Sean and I are truly humbled by your messages.  And, as always, any wisdom you could throw my way about keeping worries at bay…well…bring it on!  I’ll savor every morsel.

Not a worry in the world!

Not a worry in the world!

8 Comments on “ The Catch…Because There’s Always A “Catch” ”

  • Amy | June 4th, 2014 10:13 pm

    Knowledge can sometimes be such a curse. During my last pregnancy all seemed to be going well, to those who didn’t know better. We saw a baby, we saw a heart beat, but I know. The heart beat was slow and the baby wasn’t growing right the way it should be. When we went in for a 3rd ultrasound we got the news I had been dreading, but expecting. Our baby had died. It was mine and my husband’s 7th miscarriage, we’ve been trying 2 years to achieve a 3rd pregnancy, 4th child. Throughout the whole process I was just wishing I could unknow what I know about pregnancy and miscarriage.

    For what it’s worth, I think that God gave you this child, this complete miracle, for a reason. I don’t think He’s going to be asking anymore heart ache of you. I think this is Him letting you know how proud he is of you, and that you deserve a miracle for being such a miracle. God bless you and this baby, and may your pregnancy be smooth and perfect, your delivery fast and easy, and your new child absolutely perfect. Because all children are perfect.

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  • Rebecca | June 4th, 2014 10:18 pm

    You have been in my prayers since reading of your pregnancy. I am elated for you and your family since reading of your unexpected blessing! I had a cousin who experienced a lot of difficulties with her first pregnancy and delivered quite early. Her second (and unplanned) pregnancy was textbook…she gestated to 40 weeks and delivered a healthy baby boy (who I might add is now 19 and healthy to boot!). Hoping and praying that you experience the same blessings!
    P.S. Please keep our small area of Canada in your prayers. Just 1 hour from where I live, two RCMP officers are critically wounded and three have been killed by a crazy gunman. Reaching way too close to home.

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  • Lisa | June 4th, 2014 10:32 pm

    So happy for your family. While unexpected, what a beautiful blessing. I will keep you in my prayers for a full term, uncomplicated pregnancy!

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  • Lynda crossman | June 4th, 2014 10:33 pm

    Good luck! Seems like you have this under your belt. Good luck! Big hugs and if you need to chat feel free to write..:)

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  • kristy | June 4th, 2014 10:34 pm

    let me start off by saying CONGRADULATIONS!!!! Im so happy for you and your family!I have read your book and followed your story for quite some time!

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  • Mindy | June 4th, 2014 10:54 pm

    First, let me say congratulations!!! I read your book a while back, and thoroughly enjoyed it. You are truly an amazing woman!! That being said, I’m going to tell you something my Gpa always told me. Lay it at the altar (Gods feet), trust in him, and don’t pick it back up. I know this is easier said than done (I have twins w/ autism and epilepsy and I am a worrier ). I know from experience, when you put your trust in God, your telling him you believe in him. Remember, faith, the size of a grain of mustard seed!!!!!! I will be praying for you all!!!! God Bless!!

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  • Sarah | June 4th, 2014 11:28 pm

    Overjoyed for you! I’m 39 and I have two little boys ages 4 and 6. I have been trying to have another baby for over three years with no luck. Apparently my FSH is high (16) and I am experiencing peri-menopause. But, the want in my heart is so very strong..it sometimes truly aches. Somebody told me that God would not put these feeling in my heart if He was not going to send me another baby. I’ll keep praying and trust in His plan. Thank you for giving me hope.

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  • Carolyn Savage | June 9th, 2014 12:32 pm

    Sarah, That is so hard. High FSH is a bummer diagnosis. Hard to combat. You are in my prayers as well. Thank you!

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